The past two weeks have not been easy for me with the Kavanaugh vs Ford trial, the pending FBI investigation and pending Senator vote. I have been reliving my trauma.
Reading this article:
Republican Senator Literally Hides In The Bathroom To Avoid Hearing Sexual Assault Survivors
And how these Republican Senators responded to women when confronted made me lose it in the shower. I started thinking, I want to write these men a letter. It would go something like this:
Dear Senator Mitch McConnell and Senator David Perdue,
My entire life I have faced adversity.
When I was 6 years old, I was molested by a man dressed as a clown in a Ground Round.
When I was 8 years old, I witnessed my first murder in the gas station next to my home – a husband had shot his wife point blank in their vehicle. This was another early exposure to me of violence against women.
When I was 18, I was raped my freshman year of college. I was so scared I would be knocked up and this would be the end of my life. When I went to my school’s clinic, they asked me questions and said things to me that made me feel like it was my fault, that I asked that man to rape me. My friends, roommate, and family then ignored me and told me not to talk about it or what I was feeling.
When I was ages 23-27, I was in an abusive marriage. My ex-husband regularly beat me, sometimes so bad I had concussions. I often had to go to work in the summer with long sleeves and pants to cover my bruises. He also raped me so many times. I would like to forget all of that.
Despite all of this, I have become a productive member of my community. I have an incredible group of supportive friends. I manage an amazing team. I have physically accomplished things most humans in this world could not accomplish.
But, when you tell me you would rather vote someone in as our Supreme Court Judge, one of the highest positions of authority in our country, to push your political agenda, rather than tell the country and the world that you do not condone his behavior, that you do not condone rape and sexual assault, it rips me apart. You are so disgusting. And I don’t want to hear it that he didn’t rape her so it is different. It is still sexual assault and it is wrong.
If being approached by women like me doesn’t change your minds, I have completely lost my hope in this country.