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I had taken a few months hiatus from the workbook Healing the Trauma of Domestic Violence, but have recently returned to it at a time that seems most appropriate. Over the past few months I had been dealing with a break up and recently decided to return to the dating game, whether that is a good idea or not. Work has also been more demanding lately. I noticed over the past couple weeks, that “I’m sorry” and “I should have” have been making their way back into my vocabulary. It’s as if I have put myself back into the mindset of a domestic violence victim. So I need to do something about this fast.
The remaining chapters I had in the workbook were the following with these key takeaways. Believe it or not I have been facing these things fairly frequently over the last few months from friends, family, co-workers, dates, and strangers.
1. Assertiveness, Aggressiveness, and How to Take the High Road
- How to Respond to Verbal Aggression
- How to Respond to Aggressive Questions
- How to Respond to Aggressive Exhortations by People Who Mean Well – Believe it or not I’ve had a family member and a friend tell me “You should be over it by now”.
- The Importance of Not Tolerating Disrespect – I have had to walk away from people who have talked to me in such a disrespectful way.
- Saying No
- How You Spend Your Time Is Up to You – I have had a lot of practice with this and saying no lately.
- The Importance of Being Able to Say No Without Giving Reasons Why – I still need a lot of practice with this one. I got really upset last week when I felt I shouldn’t have to give a reason but was asked to give a reason. My therapist said this was a good thing that this frustrated me. It means a big deal – that I think I deserve not to have to justify myself.
- Saying No after You Said Yes
- Communicating Feelings – “I’m frustrated”, “I’m upset”, “I’m disappointed”, “I’m feeling sad”
- Making Requests and Communicating Wants – I have recently had practice with this. I still feel like I get walked all over, but well, I’m trying!
- Assertive Escalation in the Work Place – Over this past year I have had to do this.
- Assertive Escalation in an Intimate Relationship
2. Overcoming Fear by Exposure to Harmless Reminders
This chapter has you expose yourself to reminders of the abusive person, including:
- Looking at pictures of your ex
- Visualizing your ex
- Exposing yourself to smell, sound, sight, touch that you associate with your ex (e.g. cologne, liquor, music)
- Work on Regulating Your Tension if you were to run into your ex
- Watching Movies that Portray Domestic Violence
- Engaging in Activities That Remind You of the Abuse – TV programs that depict violence, eating certain kinds of foods, wearing makeup, jewelry or certain kinds of clothes
- Identifying other things you have been avoiding
My conclusion for this chapter was:
- I am not willing to look at pictures of my ex or visualize my ex
- I’m ok with listening to music or watching movies that I associate with my ex
- I am not ok being at places or walking places that remind me of my ex especially the neighborhood we lived in, two areas where I had been beaten severely after walking home through, and certain bars or restaurants that I associate with my ex
- I am ok with watching violent movies, and identify with movies where a woman succeeds in escaping their abuser
- I really dislike eating certain foods that remind me of my ex, but have been working on that
- I have been avoiding doing certain activities that I had shared with my ex, but am ok with not avoiding them
3. How to Identify Potential Perpetrators
You would be surprised the men that are out there in that dating pool. On one date, the guy admits to me that he and his ex-wife were abusive towards each other. I was thinking, dear god, get me out of here. In a conversation with one guy, he tells me domestic violence is compromise. Conversation ended right there.
Though this chapter has all of the standard characteristics of an abusive person which I have become very familiar with since being in an abusive relationship, it also has some advice I did not know about and would like to consider. It advises you to identify the potential abuser early on. You need to identify if the person is inable to or lacks the desire to resolve conflict in a mutually respectful way. They actually advise you to piss your boyfriend off early on. Well, invoke conflict. Considering that’s the last thing I want to do as a domestic violence survivor, I’m glad they explain how to provoke conflict:
- Disagree and Be “Selfish” – They advise you to disagree about anything, politics, TV, sports, anything where you opinion differs. To make a fuss about anything small, like what you’d prefer to do on a date. I am so very terrible at arguing. But, ok. I’ll give this a try.
- Do Not Be Rushed into a Relationship – I am feeling this one right now. They advise you to go slow, don’t allow him to make you feel rushed or pressured to spend more time together than you are willing. I’m just feeling very cautious about getting into a serious relationship right now.
- Tell Him You Are Going to Continue Dating Other People
- Insist on Reliability
- Program in an Unexplained Refusal to Get Together
- Find Out About His Prior Relationships
- Check Out His Background – Ok these last 2 may sound crazy to you, but I don’t think so after being in an abusive relationship. My ex was very clear about how poorly he treated his ex. And knowing that now and knowing that I was in an abusive relationship, if I ever hear that again, I am running away from that.
I realize I must continue practicing assertiveness, continue having self-compassion and the negative self-talk will dissipate. I am having a hard time adjusting to this new life again, but it’s not so bad. I am really proud of myself and how far I’ve come. When do I ever say that? Well, I just did. I’m proud of me. Hooray!!!
Abuse, Assertiveness, Avoidance, Conflict, Domestic Violence, Domestic Violence Survivor, Domestic Violence Victim, Domestic Violence Victims, Health, Journal, Leapyear Project, Life, lyproject, Mental Health, Negative Self-Talk, Personal, PTSD, Self Help, Self-Advocacy, Self-Compassion, Sexual Assault, Social, SuperBetter, Trauma
Posted by miaquinn in Anticipation, Assertiveness, Avoidance, Background & Planning, Body Image, Dealing with Conflict or Verbal Aggression, Guilt, Hypervigilance, Isolation, Negative Self-Talk, Nightmares, Self-Advocacy, Self-Compassion, Stress & Muscle Tension, Supposed To Beliefs on August 11, 2012
I realized the other day that I have been playing SuperBetter for over 6 months now since the end of February and beginning of March 2012. This morning I was reflecting on all of the tools and Quests from SuperBetter, the workbook Healing the Trauma of Domestic Violence, and working with my SuperBetter allies and therapist, that I’ve used to work on PTSD and was thinking, hey, I should create a toolbox or to be more appropriate for my SuperBetter Hero who is a scientist, “A Summary of Laboratory Tools and Equipment!” So here goes.
Summary of Laboratory Tools and Equipment (to Get Better from PTSD)
|PTSD / Trauma Symptom||Lab Equipment, Tools or Methods to Use|
|Supposed To Beliefs
|Dealing with Conflict
|Stress & Muscle Tension||
I’m sure I’m missing some tools, but can always add them in later, or new ones as I learn about them.
What things have worked for you to get better from PTSD? What do you want to try? What are the biggest obstacles you are facing?
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Posted by miaquinn in Anger & Letting Go, Anticipation, Assertiveness, Avoidance, Background & Planning, Dealing with Conflict or Verbal Aggression, Guilt, Hypervigilance, Isolation, Negative Self-Talk, Nightmares, Self-Advocacy, Self-Compassion, Stress & Muscle Tension, Supposed To Beliefs on August 11, 2012
In playing SuperBetter you can play whatever Hero you want to be to get better. I had picked a great scientist.
But, to make it a little fun, I was lately thinking of the X-Men and Jean Grey. Kind of a scientist of some sort and for some reason she was always my favorite character in the X-Men.
I was trying to think how Jean Grey’s super powers could relate to getting better from PTSD and here’s what I came up with:
|Super Power||As it relates to getting better from trauma|
|Phoenix Force grants the ability to:
Travel unaided through space
|Psionically manipulate matter and any form of energy||
|Create powerful “cosmic” fire||
|Resurrect from death and manipulate life energy in others||
This was pretty fun to come up with. 🙂
Who would you be and how would you use your super powers to meet your goal?
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I’ve set my next Epic Win in SuperBetter to work on Conflict Avoidance & Assertiveness. I’ve been avoiding conflict my entire life. The hypervigilance/anticipation is all tied into that. I will anticipate what someone will say or do to avoid conflict. I also struggle with being assertive. I often put everyone else’s needs and wants before mine. I feel obligated to do things when I am not. So I’ve set up some quests over the next few weeks to work on these things.
Quest: Keep a Journal
I have a hard time recognizing when something bothers me. Keeping a journal over the next two weeks may help me identify easier what is bothering me an how I can address it.
Quest: Say No or State Your Need Without Giving Reason Why
I often have this problem especially with people at work who always want to know my business, like why I have a doctor’s appointment, and I feel like I am obligated to give them an answer, but I am not.
Quest: Express My Feelings to Someone
Once a week for the next 5 weeks, express how I am feeling to someone either at home or at work. If I need something for things to work better, then ask for it.
Quest: Be assertive – Use “I messages”
Often I don’t make decisions or say what I want because I feel like I don’t have the right to have needs or wants. But, over the next few weeks I would like to push myself to be assertive more often and express what I want using “I messages” more frequently. For example, “I am feeling frustrated about X. I would really like it if we did X about it.”
Do you struggle with these things? If so, what types of things do you do to deal with them?
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